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omggg i tried it out and its so cool!... but i burnt my toast -_- atleast i see hello kittys face better! ben said i needed adult supervision cause he thought i would burn down the house (yeah my kitchen skills suck) so i had my sister watch me make toast =D yet it still didnt come out right. poo. oh well i'll make more!

Im so greatful to have friends like my whore buddies ^-^ you guys can always brighten up my day.. haha.

gahh i love u wifey. i think i met you, hrmm, second semester of last year. dance class was way fun with you. i laughed at your blondeness. and you laughed at my weirdness. iono how we got so close. some think that we've been friends for a while. but nope, its only been a semester! aha we're just cool like that.  thanks for everything. for just being there, for just being YOU. and for always talking to me during my boycrazy-ness and being that light of optimism in my head. ur cheery-ness and hyper-ness is contagious. so its no wonder everybodys always happy around you! just thanks for being my best friend and always caring no matter what. I LOVE U EVIE!!  oh yeah, thanks for loving me.. for me.

Miss Joanne Said…

My blondie whore!!!! lol....you always seem to make me hyper....anddd u also make me tired when ur hyper...bouncin off the walls!! Goshies....im sooo glad that i've met you... Miss Gorgeous!!! From the time i first saw a picture of you in ur xanga... i was like oOo she's pretty!!! And then... when i saw you at fish camp...i was like... whoa...she's tall!!  Haha....but anyways...im happy that we've gotten close thru dance and then even closer in english....you make me laugh with ur "Evie moments" aha... You know i love  you...and you know ur an awesome person... you are strong... you just got to believe  in yourself!  Happy birthday my love!

Mister Ben Said…

Happy birthday to my dearest eve. Im sorry you had a worst b-day. I don’t know what to say. But if you need someone to talk to I’ll be here for you like you always are for me, you’re the best person I know, your kind and sweet. I don’t think you deserve any of this. I hope you feel better. Im glad I met you. You’ve brightened up my day everytime I see you. If you need anything just call.  you blondie

Thanks for the great day my lovelys =] i needed it... -_- Lets see... had a Whores Day Out plus Michael and Jonathan. Went to Town East mall and AMC 3o to watch Fantastic 4. I liked the movie! Then went to Lizs house and stayed till 11pm. Had girl talk for hourrs =] it was greattt.

random thoughts
I've learned theres more beyond the pain of today.. and the scars of yesterday will still remain but i will go on living as much as my heart believes. People have no right to tell a person they are not in love.  You may think you know what love is but there is no true definition of love... the list runs endless.. everyone believes something different... feels something special.. and they'll know... when they realize it. Just dont deny a person the right to find love by always telling them its not it. Let them experiece and decide for themselves. Why is it that people have to feel like they have to be someone else... Why do they have to feel jealous. If they can see the admirable qualities in somebody else.. Why cant they see the admirable qualities in themselves? They dont realize the qualities they envy in other people are the very same ones they have too. If you think of it like that.. it'll make you try harder... harder to be yourself... or atleast for me.... Hmm.. there have been so many people who have been so great and kind to me... How can i be anything less than greatful for what i have. I have been blessed with a family that worries but loves me dearly... friends who always care and are always there for me.. a place i can call my home... What more could i possibly want, when i have people in my life who care about me like they do. I should feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I have so much to be thankful right now..

<3 evie

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People have told me that my thoughts and words are inspiring.... but how come i cant inspire myself... how come i cant find inspiration.... im all out of it -_-

Things aren’t always what they seem... right? In a moment... everything can change. its so weird huh? You’re living one life... and then you see you're also living another. Don’t you just want to go back? Back to where everything was less stressful and less complicated? Where we were innocent and clueless to reality? But then again... It’s life... its what we go through right? We change... change for the better or for the worst... we don’t know. Everyone has his or her own opinions. Blah and when people say that we've "changed" its only because we stopped acting the way they wanted us to act. i mean we cant act the same way forever and ever.. Cause we experience new things... things that have changed our lives. i don’t know.. What am i saying? im weird… gosh and people who judge people... blah. You shouldn’t judge by appearance. i mean you don’t even know the person... you don’t know what goes on in their life... how many times they've been hurt.. or why they act the way they do. I mean… give them a chance before you say the things you say… hmm and have you ever been disappointed in someone? Sure...everyone has. But don’t you hate it when you’re the disappointment of someone else? Especially if it’s the person that you don’t want to disappoint the most... it hurts knowing that you always disappoint them and always make them feel the worst… always making them want to yell at you and be mad at you. Always breaking promises and words that were meant to be kept. The look of disappointment just breaks me. And im sorry I’ve disappointed so many. But everyday is always a chance to start over right? Wrong. The things that happen from yesterday come back the next day just to make life miserable. No matter how much you try to avoid it… it’ll always come back piling up even more than before... yes and why do people say hate is such a strong word when love is just the same. People try to refrain from saying hate but people say I love you like its nothing. They carelessly say it and then when its over. They realized they don’t mean it. Saying it right in the beginning of the relationship doesn’t show love. It’s just something someone says that has no meaning in it, especially if you say it to every other person that you’ve gone out with. I mean that’s not love… those are just a few thoughts on love... I mean you cant straight out say it unless you know its true… that you wouldn’t leave this person…even when things get the roughest… that you wouldn’t ever give up. Hah but what are we talking about love for this young at age? We have the rest of our life to find it right? Yup. Hm and friends… they mean everything to me… their always there to catch me when I fall and comfort me when I need it... I love it even if you’re there just listening to my problems. They know me inside and out. I’m able to tell them everything and anything… and it with them in return. And I’m really comfortable around them. I can act the way I want and know they wont judge me for it. Ahh I’m just going to miss all my new friends this year. To think I came to Garland High school knowing no one…and ended up making a lot… and a few closer friends that I could share my thoughts to... They’ve been the best to me. I would name them but im afraid I might leave someone special out… so you guys know who ya’ll are. This year has taught me a lot of things and I’ve learned alot from them. Next year is a brand new start… a fresh beginning… and I KNOW it will be better...

i may say this year was the worst... but i could also say it was one of the best.. cause i've made some great memories... and great friends and i'll always cherish them.

[[evie hearts yoOh]]

blah.. i plan things and i get all excited keeping my saturdays free thinking i would spend them with you... but nope guess not. i put my hopes up too high again. im just really disappointed...